Last year at this time I had a concern. I hardly dared to think about it- never mind write about it. I truly hoped that the events of the year would solve and alleviate my fears.
Unfortunately, things are far worse than I even imagined. I feel like everything I have wanted and worked for for the last 20 years is being ripped apart and I have no idea how to fix it. I have prayed. I have read articles. I have cried. But I have not found an answer.
At this point I think there are two options: one that I don't know that I can live with and another that I'm not sure anyone else can live with. And so I will do nothing. Except continue to pray, ponder, and cry. And hope that my heart will be softened and I will be able to accept whatever the Lord has for a plan.
It isn't easy, but I don't know what else to do.
Maybe in a year things will look better.